VanAkel

Sad story

2011-08-20T00:09:00.001+08:00

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

fyra bdae cake and cupcake!

2011-08-20T00:04:00.004+08:00

BB Bdae!

2011-08-10T00:29:00.005+08:00

Fyra bdae was fun organising. Cm nk kahwin plak bile plan ni. ahaha... Not going to write much. Everything when quite smoothly thanks to a bunch of close friends.

*More pictures would update soon! *

*PS: Especially the cake! *

Graveyard at North Point

2011-08-10T00:26:00.003+08:00

Work at Sb-Sw cls shift and followed by graveyard shift at Sb-Np as Hafiz attached there and the partners on MC. This wat happened if Fyra went for holidays. Im bored!

Btw I have fun doing graveyard! Breaffast deluxe for breakfast at 4.30am. Thx hafiz! :)

National Day Dinner

2011-08-10T00:06:00.005+08:00

Asyura got 8 tix to National day dinner at admiralty near Christ church sec. I wanted to bring afira badly since syura got alot of tix and syura gave the green light. Syura , ful , fit , me , fyra, ipin attend the dinner while actually nizam and eddy oso but they ditch and meet firza cause he was alone. Asyura called firza actually but he didnt pick it up. So yeah. if firza wanna come, theres not enuf tix. Actually Firza can just squeeze in with us as they dont check the tix but nvm. The food was ok la. The rice was at the end of the show. Damn... Chinese style of dinner. Hate it!

But still ok since its free. ahaha!

Oh ya! and we saw double dangler of my mum! ahaha!

Our table was the messiest of all!

6R4 re-union

2011-08-09T23:57:00.002+08:00

Mr Clarence was so semangat gile babi to have 6R4 gathering as we just know on this very day that his previous class hated him so much that he asked for a changed of class and he got our lovely class of 6R4.. He love to teach us soo much as we r the first batch of P6 that he taught. chey! So at ferz yusuf created a fb grp of few r4 stud. Mostly malays for fun then sum1 go and add Mr Hoe in the grp and from there he want the whole R4 people to join the grp. ahahha!

Afterwards Mr Hoe planned a dinner before puasa and there were some places we decided like manhattan fish market, macs etc.... Finally we decided to choose Rubina! I get to know that it was near his house and sch(he transfer to endevour primary sch) -.-

He was like expect me to planned everything but I was lazy to organised an event but i managed to help him by choosing places directing other of my classmates to Rubina. After dinner we headed to my workplace,Starbucks. Busted nye hoe! Alastair was on shift wif Ali. I know how it feels to see a huge crowd during closing but i helped them arrange back the chairs and clear the 3 drinks which the big grp ordered. ahaha... and some mark out food oso. ahaha...

6R4

2011-08-09T23:49:00.001+08:00

Plan to have 6R4 gathering soon! :D

USS

2011-07-25T22:25:00.005+08:00

Went to USS with bb on wednesday since everyday wednesday im not schooling. Meet her early in the morning with hotcakes and 1.5l strawberry tea. I ate one hotcake and the rest we planned to eat at USS which is a gd thing as food there is freaking expensive! I oso made scramble egg at her house with egg! ahaha!

We just needto pay $7 for the entrance as fyra won coca cola lucky draw worth $125 voucher of resort World. nyahahhaa! So yeah we took almost all of the ride. We dare not take the galatica. Scary siol! ahaha! Reach there round 10am and went back round 9pm? around that time. We had fun!! ily fyra!!! <3

(More picture uploaded at fb)

PS: ily bb<3

BBQ chicken

2011-07-25T22:19:00.003+08:00

I guess i forgot to upload about this where me and bb when to BBQ chicken at North Point! I dun really recall why we were in NP going to ask bb to help me recall! The food was ok la not bad. ahaha.. <3

Additional bdae card

2011-07-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

Cards from my 2 little sisters!

PS: thanks!

Happy Birthday to me

2011-07-25T21:36:00.003+08:00

So my bdae was better than last year cause at lwast valkyer remember when is my bdae but the sad part is the going out thing is a lil bit messy i should say but i still do appreciate valkyer and fira to be there and special thanks to syura and fira to "plan".

So ya my bdae itself when North Point with fira and i dunnoe wats her plan but I was starving. She still searching for places to eat but cerewet cause ramai org la or seafood la k pape and ended up i bring her to food court below jek. Murah and mengenyang kn. kn senang. -.-

After that bought cake bla3 jumpe syura pat cwp den we 3 aje mkn cake. <3
I appreciate it!

Follow by saturday g henderson wave conflict jap bla3 and shisha and go home.

JB with nizam!

2011-06-09T15:16:00.003+08:00

Went JB with nizam just to buy ciggs! ahahaha! I just notice that my dad was working afternoon shift so it was a lil bit scary to enter the checkpoint without my parents knowing but luckily i didnt see any sign of him. thank gawd! ahaha! Went there buy ciggs walk around eat marry brown and went back to woodlands. :)

Thx nizam for accompany.. ;)

2011-06-09T15:07:00.001+08:00

Yeap this guy is my IT security faci and he sure looks like peter from the faamily guy. Dun u guys think so? nyahahaha!!

Attachment

2011-06-09T15:06:00.001+08:00

Went attachment with fyra at Starbuck's Harborfront and I taught them how to cook nuggets, hotdog and instant noodles using Starbucks stuff. nyahahaha!

*Spread the food*

Tango!

2011-06-09T15:04:00.000+08:00

I just discovered that there is an app called Tango that could 3G ur friends who also must have Tango for free! So i had been Tango like almost everynight with Firza. hahahah!

Hangover

2011-06-09T15:02:00.001+08:00

Members came over to my creeps to watch soccer as usual. If im not wrong is man u vs chelsea and chelsea lost. nyhaha.. me and syura bought 24 cans of redbull and we cant finished it. haha! I remembered the next day syura actually got his 1st day of FOP camp and he actually vomitted as he drank alot of redbull. hahaha!

FarEastPlaza!

2011-06-09T15:00:00.003+08:00

It been more than a month since i last updated my blog as I was busy with my school stuff so I will update from the last post. (The date would not be the same)

So as what i remember, me and fyra went to fareastplaza for finding the replacement of my spec which i gave to the orphanage during the Starbuck's volunteer. So ya dats bout it. We went to eat at Cahaya followed by findng my specs and there is this particular shop that sells all variation of specs. Cool! The most amazing is the one im using on the pic above. :)

Fyra bought heart shape spec for herself and by now comferm the shade had lost. nyahaha!

Suhaimi Second last day!

2011-06-09T04:03:00.002+08:00

Before he quit, he told me that he want to treat me but end up he treat me haritz and hafiz too! aww! lots of sb-sw is quitting sb. haiz! he need to go NS. understanable.. Also asked him to send me home as after I finished my shift and by the time I went for supper, the last bus,856, would have left, So yanto ride me home with his super 4!!! Love it! aha! Den lepak under my block bbl2 till 2am... :)

Gonna miss his merepekness when his gone. haha!

Flea Market

2011-06-09T03:51:00.002+08:00

Went to flea market with fyra at Singapore flyer. I wont forget that day as we sumhow have a big fight during that day. So the story goes like this. It was Saturday and as usual i played street soccer with my members. After that went home to change and meet fyra. Suddenly i was having this strong headache . I met fyra at cwp asking her to come fast as I could not resist the pain. She came and help me buy panadol and told me its ok if we cancel today's event but not wanting to be the cause of not doing her favourite stuff, which is flea market, i told her we should just continue our plan.

My head was too painful I told fyra to withdraw the money when we reach spore flyer, forgetting that there is no POSB machine there, she agreed. So i slept in the bus and wake up feeling much better. Upon reaching our destination, we went to flea market and theres where we realise we have not withdraw money and the nearest POSB is at marina square. I was like shit! She was wearing heels btw and so yeah start the fight but upon reaching back at the flea market, everything went much smoother. Hadmour dinner at Popyes and we headed back home. :)

PS: fyra bought the heart ring and i bought this old spec for myself. :)

Town!

2011-06-09T03:20:00.003+08:00

Went town with syura motive to buy myself school bag but end up I bought nth. Just survey around. We ate at fareast plaza and we saw sheikh haikal and his wife. Thought of taking his picture but we were shy. haha! There is also like show ur talent show infront of fareast plaza and this guy above act as, u knoe who, the king of pop. cool shit!

We walk to somerset as I wanted to show syura the bridge that above the expressway but after an hour of finding the place, we find out that the bridge had cage around it so we cant enter it. -.-

So we just sat at the staircase beside the bridge and lepak! ahaha... took some photos above as asyura want to change his fb dp. haha... dats all peeps. ZzZz..

2011-06-09T03:05:00.001+08:00

Im trying my best to slim down. Syura also but he has more advantage as he joined the evolve. -.-

ahaha! look at his body! Slim down already! hahaha! (Ok this post seriously like im a gay. haha.)

Lets hope we slim down! :D

Few more days im legal!

2011-06-09T02:59:00.002+08:00

Few more days and I will be LEGAL age! woohoo! Turning 18! But I am not looking forward to it though as dat day is my ferz UT exam and I need to submit my java assignment by that day! gawd! After dat day I should start my report on my PP. alot of stuff need to do! Stress !

Apart from that, I would consider to take car licence as my fam have car already making it easy after I had passed, I could borrow my parents car! But I would want to take bike licence too as it is more convenient to park anywhere. Both have advantages and disadvantages though. My parents encourage me to take car licence but not bike licence as bike is much more " danger ".

Bb fyra oso prefer car rather than bike. hmm.. We shall see.

Happy Mother Day + Happy birthday mum

2011-06-09T02:01:00.002+08:00

My mum's bdae is always near to mother day so i will buy her cake to celebrate both days. Save money mah. hahaha! As last year I bought her a cake and this tyme round I add 1 spring chicken from Amigos! The spring chicken dun really look like a spring chicken though. WTH so small.. -.-

But yeah, my mum happiness is all that matters. :)

PS: Happy bdae mum and happy mother day! :)

zoo

2011-06-09T01:36:00.006+08:00

So our plan to go to the zoo finally came to be realistic. hahaha! After about one year fyra had been waiting for this day. But i guess we came at the wrong time as most of the animals is sleeping! gawd! irritating. And the most scariest part is the alligator as it was freaking huge! seriously. We walked like almost the whole part of zoo and fyra had her lunch at KFC as Im on diet I just stared at her. nyahahha!

Random!

2011-04-13T00:10:00.003+08:00

2011-04-12T23:52:00.004+08:00

When to Darul Ma'awa with Starbucks for volunteers! The kids was awesome! This kids(above) are the most closest to me during that day. Everyone have their own buddy so is like 1 to 1 but end up this kids all when up to me. Other buddy was like myb old for them idk. Other partners like sumhow rude as some went to sleep while resting. I knoe dat we need to wake up early to Darul Ma'awa but its a volunteer work. Cam tk ikhlas gtu! hmph...

I really miss dem and i hope that I cou;d visit them again someday!

JB with Girl-fy!

2011-04-12T22:41:00.004+08:00

Went JB with GF last week! ahahaha! When there pagi2 then go inner city bnyk kdai tutop. bgus! ahaha! den watch movie The Hop about this rabbit plays the drum! Freaking cool! The popcorn btw sux! Do not buy it people! Before the movie, we went to Nandos to have our breakfast and thought of eating Kenny Rogers for lunch but after Nandos we were too full to stuff Kenny Rogers! ahahaha!

Bought couple shirt for both of us! Ranglan shirt! ahaha! We both didnt buy alot of stuff though. Btw fyi taobao item came and we both love it!! :D

Sb-Sw Outing!

2011-04-12T17:48:00.004+08:00

Went out with Sb-Sw to Sentosa! We used up our 1.2k upon winning the top selling of christmas beverage! woohoo! ahaha.... Went there and play desperados(top the second round), log ride, pirates smth i forgot the name and also i encounter my fear by taking the megazip(flying fox). Its not that scary after all. I take it with fyra as she is too light to ride the megazip herself. ahaha!

After that we ate at Carls Jr and i we all ate like nvr ate before as we were all famishes(is this the word?) ahaha...

PS : Proud to work starbucks!

Survival with brotherhood

2011-03-29T13:27:00.004+08:00

So 16 March 2011 marks the day Valkyer was there for me. Here the story goes.. My family when to KL last warning while i slept at Asyura the day before they went KL and I decided to stay in Spore as I had organised dinner for Valkyer on that day. The best part was I didnt bring my house key and so after i dinner i was soo stress and luckily Valkyer was there for me! So we ton around my area *accept for fitri. He would always be sleeping although we keep changing places(public area fyi)*

He was tired because the day i slept his house we didnt sleep till 4+ playing games and while me and syura get some sleep, he need to go for band in the morning. So thats y he sleep everywhere we go. ahaha... So my fam when for 2 days. Planned to call the Locksmith but it worth $60 just to enter my house. So i rather spent my time outside. aha.. With $10 left for 2 days, i bought breakfast for syura ful fit fir in the morning since i felt bad. Btw din syura fit supposed to overnight my house and since they told their parents and it was late night after our dinner, they cant just go back home so they are also been drag no house till firza's brother left for work and we slept at his brother's apartment.

After a few sleep, i went to work borrowing saiful shirt(have i return him back?) and luckily i was wearing a black shorts but with blue lines. After explain it to rin, rin allow it. Thx for starbucks, i fill myself with starbucks food and brought back some mark out food with me for the second night. Asyura asked to go his house but i feel bad as he need to accompany his mother to hospital and also scared that her mum would suspect since two days before i slept his house then he told his mum he slept my house den the next day i slept his house again. So i planned to take the tent that i put outside my house and change a shirt that was hang outside my house and ton with firza at waterfront. ahaha... i supposed to work the next day again but i find replacement as i was too weak to work.

Morning we went back again to firza's bro apartment to take a nap. Meet ful and syura and accompany ful to take his passport. By dat tyme my fam return and i asked to transferred money and so i withdraw to eat with dem at beach rd and home sweet home.

PS: To make it worst, dear gf was at JB too.. -.-

After i went home, i told my parents that i wanted to go to KL with some of the valkyer but my mum dun allowed it at first but after she feel bad that i cant went home for two days and told her that valkyer take care of me, my parents decided to let me go. So the day before we went to KL syura accompany me to buy the bus ticket to KL. Luckily there still seat available . So i bought it. The day before we went to KL oso is the day fyra came back. Luckily she came back dat day if not, i wont see her for 9 days straight. So i told syura that its a must to meet gf for awhile. Another stressfuk part was i was working on the day i went to KL. No one can cover me and also fyra cause shes sick. I feel soo bad. Although she sick she do try to cover for me. Su wanted to give me CA but i think im so adorable to get one. aha..

Went Time Square almost everyday, i decided to call my cousin in KL to bring us to inner part of KL. Presenting The Most Largest Prata Tissue! ahaha! Then after that we headed down to downtown. :)

I didnt buy a lot of stuff though as i didnt bring alot of money. Its a last minute trip so i didnt planned on saving for KL. Lagipon, i went there alot of time and so i didnt knoe wat to buy as most stuff i bought before like shirt shades bag etc...
Smoking free flow! Syura bought alot of different ciggs! He bring alot of money but couldnt enjoy shopping as myb msian all small size so he spent it on ciggs! ahaha..

That in green is MENYEH! ahaha! My cuzzie... Menyeh is his nickname btw. Dun ask me y cause idk!
PS: 9 days with brothers!

(More pictures at fb)

2011-02-21T04:18:00.003+08:00

Shes so cute. Especially when she smiles. Shes so kind till i cant find anyone else who nicer den her. For 5yrs i broke her heart alot of times till i lost track of the numbers. Despite all that had happen, she still stayed by my side. I cant find any reason to leave her while she can find alot reasons to leave me. Wait, the only reason i could find to leave her because she had shed alot of tears when shes wif me which broke my heart. :'(

I didnt mean to but she would just cry almost every night because i did smth to upset her. haiz. Everyone with the right mind would say i would not deserve her i knoe. How can i pay back someone who always there for me?? It is not logic at all. :'(

I hate myself for doing this. Seeing u cry girl just make me want to kill myself instantly. Im a failure in life. hmm...

PS: Pls stop crying and find sum1 who deserve u more and make u happy so that everyday u would laugh and smile instead of crying. The rest managed could leave me so can u. Dun worry bout me cause i would be fine living in this world alone. *I deserve it afterall the "heartbroken session" * haiz..

Complicated

2011-02-21T03:06:00.003+08:00

In life you will tend to make mistakes. You would not realize your mistakes till the mistake hit u back. But the advantage of it is u would tend to learn something from ur mistakes. Example when u do a math questions and u got the answer wrong, u would tend to do correction so that U would not repeat the mistake again. *Duh!*

I've mistake in my life. A big one though. My mistake was having the mindset of when i ask to be in a rs, i will surely get. From there onwards (primary 6) i told myself i would get in rs easily. As a 13yrs old boy, i ask for a "stead" is like asking someone to be my bestfriend. So when the first one succeed, i tried for the second time and i succeed again and it feels good. I continue without realising that I had oready 3 gf that time. *OMG* i knoe. One of dem is a Eurasian for the record. Awesome! *Trust me straight guys and lesbians, shes hot*

So it went on till i reach sec 1. I told myself i want to commit in rs and cant continue toying wif sum1 heart. It is just not me. *Seriously it is not me!* and i got attracted to this girl where i was crazy bout her! And after a few months and get att for only 11 days. Pathetic i knoe. I was heartbroken as the ferz girl who i want to commit left me because i was too sensitive . *Cmon! my ferz serious rs plan. who wouldnt be over protective ryte?*

So i was so upset, my "P6 mindset slowly turn back up" What for I should be in a serious rs where i could get to know a lot of girls ryte? So when on till i met my next gf which thx to somebody who did the job for me. But it wasnt bad at all. but thats not how i met ur mother kid.*feeling2 telling tis to my kid*. Broke up and 8 days later she came. Another serious plan. But myb things would not meant to be. *Amazingly for the record shes my ferz love though*

continue2 till i met her whom i get to knoe dat she likes me for 5 yrs. *WOW!* In between im wif sum1else and get back to her.

To Be Continue...

*Tune in next week for how i met your mother!*

So that basically the story of my life. Interesting? The answer is no. Haiz.. I knoe theres ups and down in rs but non of dem dat i didnt broke their heart. As in really broke their heart. I may knoe that they hurt but didnt feelw at they feel. Now slowly i und why they cry alot. *Girls so sensitive seriously.* Theres a quote says once a broken heart may be fix back but the cracks will remain or scars would left on the heart and many more.

Now karma hit me real hard and i knoe i deserve it. I cant spend one day now without being hurt and oso one day without hurting the one i love. haiz... I didnt mean it seriously but like i say i deserve it. Now believe it or not i had phobias in getting to know girls as her heart would be broken sooner or later by me. Girl tears are very precious. Every drops of it is like shes stepping away slowly from u. I had rather know her as friend and would laugh along than making her sad and she would hate u, go away from u and u cant expect things to be the same before the rs happen again between u two. *True Story*

I just hate myself for breaking girls heart. Im really3 sorry. *Karma pls stop, I had learned my lesson sumhow* This may continue till i grow up. I really hope i can face my next rs with confidently and smoothly and not by breaking her *whoever she is* heart at all. :'(

To all that i had broke their heart:

And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you

PS: Jerry, i really miss u and i do love u. But ur hapiness is always my priority. If breaking my heart to see u wif sum1else that would make u happy, I wouldnt mind at all.. hmmm...

2011-02-13T15:56:00.000+08:00

Oh, my love, my darling,
I've hungered for your touch a long, lonely time,
Time goes by so slowly and time can do so much.
Are you still mine?
I need your love, I need your love, God speed your love to me.

Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea
To the open arms of the sea
Lonely rivers sigh, 'Wait for me, wait for me'
'I'll be coming home, wait for me!'

Are you still mine?
I need your love, I need your love, God speed your love to me

2011-02-13T12:33:00.005+08:00

. (We are actually trying to craft out *W46K* in the above picture)

So yeah semester 2 has ended. Sob2.. Just like my maths faci once told us, this is part and puzzle or partial or whatever it spell like of life. Im so going to miss my sem 2 classmate! There are only one word to discribe them which is amazing.

I love the way our class bond and the best part of all we will always blast music during our 1st & 2nd break. I also love the way that each individual has their own uniqueness. Joshua, his like a walking IT helpdesk. Thanks to him we no need to go down to IT help desk when something when wrong. He will know what to do.

Patrick good at powerpoint animations. Wenting iPhone experties! He jailbreak for me. He pro in tap2. Trust me he really dat gd. Yvaine cigg supplier. ahaha... She like to donate her ciggs. Ben go and turn down the bass for our class speaker soo it really feels like clubbing every break time. cool! The list keep going down and down. W46K is just amazing.

It is true that if u r in rs in poly life, ur circle of friends would not be that much. Thats y i bond wif my sem 2 classmate more than my sem 1 cause i was in a rs in sem 1 but that does not mean i regret or anything. :)

PS: Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

2011-02-07T14:34:00.000+08:00

For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you think that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And I’m So sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love,for wasting your time
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
I’m so sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won’t make my difference tonight
But I’m hoping I’m Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry do can’t turn back time
I’m sorry that i loved you
I’m sorry that i hurt you
I’m so sorry that i loved you
I’m sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i loved you

Swensen's Buffet

2011-01-25T15:31:00.004+08:00

Went Swensen buffet with fyra since shes craving of ice-cream! Ahahaha! Plan to shop at ion but end up buying a fedora onlA. ahaha... Must wait for payday which is tis cumin fri! Woohoo! And also,i will received $800+ from RP as they deduct wrongly and will give back the refund. Yes uh! Plan to use the money for Evolve! aha..

Ya theres around 50 different types of ice-creams but we only tasted around 7 of it?? We were full though. ahaha... Mkn stu sungguh tk mengenyangkn! And below the picture u can tell which is mine and which is hers. ahahaha! she barely eat alot though.

PS: Lemon ice-cream gives you orgasm!

Epic!

2011-01-18T21:19:00.002+08:00

This is just for entertainment ppl! :D

Kaklong's Bdae!

2011-01-18T21:08:00.004+08:00

Happy Bdae to my dearest sister.! Da tue! 20 yrs old! hahahaha! So during her bdae instead i treat her, she want to treat the whole family seoul garden. At first want to go only the 4 of us(Siblings) But Ibu called and want to join as she finished work early. So ibu and kaklong folk out for the dinner treat. Nyahahaha!! Eat non-stop! haha.

Heart Family

VaLkyeR

2011-01-18T21:03:00.001+08:00

“The mystical bond of brotherhood makes all men brothers”

Twinney

2010-12-15T15:04:00.003+08:00

RANDOM!

*Pictures when she sick*

Main ValkyeR Outing

2010-12-15T10:31:00.010+08:00

Went out with the main valkyer to town because i want to go shopping..! ahaha... So they accompanied me to peninsula. woohoo.. After taking train from woodlands, Suraj called and wanted to sent us to peninsula instead as he was heading down to Boat Quay. As he just got his license, he was not familiarise with the road and took as nearly an hour and a half to reach our destination. fuh! ahaha!

So reach there around 8+ Nd quickly search for stuff. When to M.O.C and spent $113.90 and get a member card. ahaha.. Excitement is yet to come. We walk to raffles city and randomly walk around the shopping centre and start doing stupid stuff. ahahaha! Not all videos are uploaded though. Went home around 11+ by bus.

Best outing ever! Going out soon ayte?? When we get our pay so im not the only one shopping. ;)

PS:Other vids and pictures was uploaded at fb.

Open House Starbucks!

2010-12-15T10:20:00.002+08:00

After followed Syura for his job interview, I went to my workplace as there was an open house event for that day and fuh! quite tired as not really used to the slam. But it was fun though. Towards the end black out! ahahaha! cause the blender overheat or smth. ahahaha!

Nice working in Starbucks.. ;)

Asyura JoB interview

2010-12-15T09:21:00.004+08:00

Teman-ing Asyura to find job. Da lame die cari tapi tk dpt2 which result to above picture. nyahahahha!!

First he wanted to go to Bugis works at Nando's but got to find out from his mum tk halal! Confident lagi nk fight yg Nando's halal. ahahaha!! So went to North Point and asked for almost all the shops there but end up only two accept. First was BATA. $3.50 per hour. He said confidently again only $1.50 different compare to mine. Since BATA was the only one accept after trying 20 other store being reject.

I asked him to chill and try last result which is Wendy's. Dats the second dat accepted him and his pay was $5 per hr and he said $1.50 extra den BATA. Thats alot! Contradicting boy! ahahaha!

So long in Wendy's!

2010-11-30T15:05:00.003+08:00

SSC got sesame street show so i was bloody excited after seeing cookie monster! I felt in love with the Song! C is for cookie is gd enuf for me. Cookie3 start with C! ahahha! Below the video but I start taking the video after cookie monster singing. But the tune is the same only it change into christmas instead of cookie! ahaha! I wanted to take with them by the end of the day but only children was allowed. Damn!

2010-11-30T14:07:00.003+08:00

yeah so valkyer came down to starbucks(firza fitri asyura and saiful) since me and ful sleeping over at asyura house so they came here ferz. Saiful came down to starbuck after his work at Giant. ahaha... they help me do closing oso so yeah thx.. ;)

Bdae Boy!

2010-11-29T15:38:00.004+08:00

Happy Bdae nizam!!
So yeah i planned for this. Actually the idea is for sum1 whom i used to love. But i dun seem the point for making it for her so i planned it for bro nikko! I altered a lil bit here and there so it would not be girlish. ahaha.. So the planned was when nizam was having his break i project a video of us being together over the past few years and after the video had ended we came in with cake. MMuacks! Marvellous planned ever! BUT the video was sumhow like slow so PLAN B! I always got back up. ahaha. We just go in with the cake. I burned the CD for him soo he can watch and keep it. Aww... Yeah so the next day we give him the latest Adidas Predator soccer shoes as his have a big whole at the toe for both side. ahahha!

Partial-ing

2010-11-29T15:08:00.005+08:00

Last week partial with the whole class. It was fun though. ahaha.. Actually i find the faci ok but since not a single one staying in class, i joined and it was quite fun. Because if us, most facilitator knoes our class. We r famous! woohoo! ahaha... We partial during first break. The timing when we partial is when faci almost come back to class. ahaha!

UT

2010-11-23T15:15:00.001+08:00

Can i skipped UT today??? So sleepy, hungry, tired, boring, sleepy, oh did i mention it oready? *yawn*

UandME

2010-11-23T15:11:00.001+08:00

Do you hear me? I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning 'round
You hold me right here, right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh, ooh

Arsenal New Player

2010-11-23T15:02:00.003+08:00

Sungguh Epic! Face swap for fun.. ahahaha! So Arsenal had bought a new player from Singapore. Akel , 17 , Midfielder.. (^^.)v

Hari Raya Haji , Slasher!

2010-11-23T14:39:00.006+08:00

So like usual Hari raya haji i helped out the mosque and this year is my fifth year. So like usual we ton before the day. Nizam, eddy, ful, asyura, fit, fir and me. But in the morning left me barri, syura and eddy. Yang laen freak out. ahaha... so they went home. Sumpah pnat. We 4 cabut solat raye duduk pat bsstp den pagi2 g kdai kopi meerah's corner. baru bukak da attack. Somhow i treat dem breakfast as i folk out 3/4 of the bill. ahaha... Yeah dats all. Mbeekkkk!!!

HotStuff!

2010-11-15T23:08:00.003+08:00

My target for now to get this girl. Her name is Asyura. Ahaha.. She is somebody. Every guy want her. Shes so hot dat most guys will melt when seeing her eventually. ahahaha!

Sunday Morning

2010-11-15T22:33:00.003+08:00

Sunday I was suppose to have movie marathon wif god who knoes but end up working as Rin adik accident and there was no pre-close. I pity fyra so I helped out till 9. I dun mind free labour but since Sue bgi clock in i clock in. Dpt $$.. :D

So after that rushed home to catch Arsenal match and also I wanted to rest as the next day was Maths UT. So Arsenal won 2-1 and Chelsea Lose 3-0 with Sunderland so Arsenal 2nd place with 2pts away with Chelsea. :D

Ouh ya. I did some experiment with Starbuck's facilitates . I was super hungry and wanted to go to Rubina but it was raining so i went to the Giant and bought Instant noodles goreng with nuggets!(Both havent cook) Since Fyra was hungry too so I decided to cook for her. I was the chef for the day! ahaha.. Take me less den half an hout to complete the dish. Finish it up with 2 glass of vodka rasberry! ouh-yeah! My favourite drink ever! :D

Both end up full. *Burp* Allhamdullilah..

Ouh yeah, i put back all the stuff before i go so that twinney wont have lots of stuff to do when closing. ahaha.. ;)

PS: Ur welcome uh twinney! ahaha!

Sorry

2010-11-11T22:13:00.003+08:00

Im sorry for lying to my dearest bros bout going to the beach alone. Is not because i want to make them feel stupid. Its not dat i was ashamed to go out wif twinney. Its not that i love to lie.

I dun even knoe why i lie in the first place. Myb I want to prevent them from teasing about me did smth which i did not? Just because only me and twinney?

I had actually planned to go places like shopping alone. yeah its true i lie going shopping alone dat day but soon i will eventually go out alone. Look its not dat i want to be a loner or anti-social but I just want to be independent?? Stop depending on people? Dont get me wrong. Examples are I had never ever did smth for sum1 i love without sum1 helping me set up the place or putting the stuff in places. haiz..

Y cant i go to buy my soccer boots alone? Y cant i go pay my fines alone? Sometimes i just feel bad asking help or asking accompany from people when eventually i can do it myself? Hmm.. From now on i wont force or plead anyone to accompany me? i try. It is selfish for my part. For that I am sorry.

PS: Hope to be independent

2010-11-10T22:18:00.001+08:00

Today this picture shall do my blogging. Theres a saying a picture worth a thousand words. :D

2010-11-09T22:57:00.003+08:00

K random post! I love my hair when it short. I love my hair when it is long. I love my hair when it is highlighted! I love my hair when it is wet. I love my hair when it straight. I love my hair when it is curl. BUT i hate my hair now! hmm.... What should i do with my hair?? I need comment people!

PS: My vain-ness of my hair is cuming back. This is bad! grr!

Beach

2010-11-08T17:24:00.004+08:00

Plan to go Far East wif twinney but ended up shopping at Parkway Parade.. :D

Didnt quite buy anything though. We went to Pastamia to have our lunch although fyra had cooked spaghetti. aha..

Den next we head up to the beach! Bnyk banglas and philipinos! Irritating btol. So we set up tent and planned to swim but we both were just lazy so we stare at the sky wif our shades on. Fyra da start mepek when the clouds move she said cm spaceships nk invade earth. ahaha! Den nk start hujan we stayed in the tent. aha.. When the rain had "slowed down" we pack our stuff and back to woodlands. :D

Have a great day wif u fyra! Looking forward to have another outing with you. :D

PS: Sorry tk antar u balik like i always do.. I will made it up to u. ;)

HULUBALANG!

2010-11-08T17:14:00.002+08:00

So last saturday asyura asked me that his mum wants my help for the mosque. Jln sebelah Haiwaii-zai-p.. ahaha.. Alot of plan was cancel just to help my bestie out. :D

And yeah we only took 10 mins to walk like few metres beside Haiwaii-zai-p but after that we ate for half an hour! ahaha... Since we are the one who finished our job first, we ate first.

First dish chicken chilli den tom yam soup, kailan veg, sweet & sour fish, butter prawn and fried rice! We thought at first only got fried rice and chicken . After we ate, one by one new dish came in. So we like tambah 3-4 times. ahahaha! :D
HULUBALANG!

2010-11-08T13:35:00.002+08:00

First time i ate pizza for my breaks during work thanks to Sue, temporary manager, for treating me and suhaimi! ;)

I always mix up and call sue wani. ahaha... As wani was also from harbour front as Sue so i mix dem up as i work wif wani before quite often. I kept calling her Wani instead Sue. ahaha!

PS: Thx for the treat Sue. :)

Bila Cinta

2010-11-02T23:50:00.001+08:00

Watched Lagenda Budak Setan. Hmm... *Believe me that I did not cry* Emy yanto nangis! aha..

The storyline was complicated yet understandable. The ex busted. have sex with her gf but still flirt2 around when shes attached with that girl. When the girl find other guys he came back pulling her ex back. (Hmm.. Am i that bad back den? BUT when "she" found someonelse i didnt stop "her" right?)

I hate the part where they exchange gift before the guy departed for 1 year. The girl gave him diary from how they meet till the moment they need to seperate. Wah that part fuh! *Bila cinta kini tk berguna lagi* The song kept repeating during sad scene. :'(

I also hate the part where the guy bought couple rings ,both got their name at the inner part of the ring, for them and wanted to wear it for the girl but the girl said that she will let him wear for her after he finished his study to find out she was married. Wah! Throw the ring better!

That story show true love story. My day will come.

TATTOO!

2010-11-01T11:25:00.003+08:00

Your body is a temple, but how long can you live in the same house before you redecorate?

I find it cute when couples having colourful tattoos on their body. I should consider it too. hmm..

My dream Body!
This one too!
My future GF! ;)

2010-10-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

You say sorry, I say thanks.. tc twinney. Gonna miss u..:'(

2010-10-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

Sungguh Epic! Love both of u! ahaha!

2010-10-31T16:33:00.002+08:00

Haiz, Dear Marlboro, i guess i need to move on from you? Hmm.. It will be hard I know. All the good memories we had shall not be erase. Haiz.. Everywhere i go will remind me of u. Miss ur green-ness on you box. U never fail to accompany me when i am down. Haiz.. But y cant u be my only one? Y must i see u with someonelse too? hmm... Without u my life will be a totally different. I used to go to KK with u accompany me but now wats the point going down to KK? It will only remind me of u oh dear marlboro.. Haiz... Im letting u go now. If u meant for me, u would come back. Tc dear... :'(

2010-10-31T16:20:00.003+08:00

Idk why onthe 7th of october I just feel that i want to give away my money so i planned to smoke at cwp titanic. Den after long waited, HSA came and i was fine $30. I feel sad as i almost 18 soon. I would not be able to donate to the HSA anymore. haiz.. Sorry HSA.. _l_

[M/V] TAEYANG (SOL from BIGBANG) - WEDDING DRESS [HD]

2010-10-31T16:00:00.001+08:00

Thx to my classmate Ben i addicted to this song.

Basically i like the video. For anyone who do not understand the video its about this guy love the girl and when he planned to propose the girl, his bestfriend propose her first. So end up he was not with that girl. Threw away the ring which he bought for that girl. If only he had proposed earlier. sad2.

PS: Sometimes i wonder why u still wear that ring. hmm..

2010-10-29T14:52:00.003+08:00

Ever felt like putting efforts in changing "something" to be perfect and by the end of the day, it was not meant for you.? Thats life. When Something not meant for you, it will just go. Leaving memories behind. Like a video playing in your mind.

PS: Forgiveness and letting go are steps on our road back to happiness

Twinney

2010-10-29T11:27:00.002+08:00

I almost died yesterday doing closing alone! Da tkder mood before go work den slam like working on weekend! I was alone! When I was about to gave up, theres fyra offering help. She ended at 5 but stay till closing to helped me clear all customers and do closing with me. I appreciate it lots!

Although u were always hurt but u never fail to keep me company, offering endless help and ensure everything will be fine. Thx.. :')

PS: After we got our paid lets go to the zoo! We cook first bnyk2 then picnic pat zoo skali? ahaha! Lets meet ur sedare - mare! :P

2010-10-29T11:23:00.002+08:00

Ahaha! I Hate this fucking Laura Faci! gave me C for the past two module! _l_

Truefriends

2010-10-27T22:11:00.004+08:00

Lets sit by the seaside, me and u, smoke the whole night, gazing the stars, watching the full moon and get drunk. Wake up in the morning, ur hair was messy but i find it cute. U scold me cause u thought i was lying. Went back home with a smile. :)

Goodbye..

2010-10-27T21:45:00.003+08:00

I dont know but i hate having this kind of feelings, doubts and watsover. So i will finalise my answer.?? hmm..

Fuck karma still have i guess. Grr... But nvm soon im sure it will end.

Soo, here i go..

Hey W, im sorry for everything.. U never fail to let me feel bad but nvm. I was once like u. So forgiving u like forgiving myself. Look, his a gd guy and i hope u will treasure him and hope u will last long. I knoe dat our story had way ended but u cant change fate right? Like u told me, firasat. ahaha! Melayu abes! Idk wat to say. Hmm.. thx for being part of my life. i nvr regret knowing u. :)

Going KK will be diff but i got barri! aha.. yeah. U stay class uat wrksht jek ayte?? aha.. :)

A, do take care of her. All the best and last long ayte?

Twinney, haiz... im sorry. i had hurt ppl too much. U deserve to be wif sum1 who will create ur own world together without other ppl disturbing u guys i should say? U had suffered too much and i cant continue seeing u suffer. I will always be here to listen to ur prob. Just msg me ayte? I will always be 8 no. away. Soon a prince will come and take u out from the tower that u had been trapped all along. (Mcm rupunzel la plak).. hmm.. im sorry. I just cant afford to hurt u or anyonelse ever again. I didnt mean to hurt u all this while. Hmm...

For me studying, working and gym will be my priority for now. Its been long i spent my time alone. I just need dat. So take care ppl and stay happy always.

PS: Sometimes u win when u lose.

HALLOWEEN!!

2010-10-27T21:37:00.003+08:00

Woohoo!! Halooween around the corner!! My classmates, W46K planned to go out for hallooween watch paranormal activity 2! tk sure uh if i can make it or not. Fuck3! But nevertheless, I hope valkyer will went out to the banglow house beside my house and knock the door and say trick or treat! ahaha! Sumhow we had planned wat to wear.. Oh yeah!

Sumpah epic! ahahaha!!

NS

2010-10-27T21:17:00.002+08:00

Ok i cant wait for NS! Hopefully barri will be the same batch as me! dari secondary to poly and NS?? WOW!!! :D

Wat if all valkyer same batch??? impossible.. ahahaha!!!

PS: SUMPAH KEKEK KTE SUME!! lets look and laugh and make it memories. :)

2010-10-26T13:23:00.001+08:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

2010-10-26T09:28:00.002+08:00

Haiz.. Sumhow smth bad happened? idk.. but watever it is study and gym is my no 1 priority..

PS: Gd Luck twinney for your Maths O lvl later ate??? ;)

2010-10-26T09:12:00.002+08:00

Went to CE games beside W1 and received not 1 not 2 not 3 not 4 BUT 5 CE points! ahahaha!! Simply go there play games then create penguin and wala!5 CE points! ahahhaa! Enjoy myself with barri, zam and din to make the event more fun? ahaha! DIN BUAT SURF UP NYE PENGUIN! ahahha! He almost gave up but i helped him finished it. Cheybah! BAek pe aku?! ahahaha! Zam nye dickhead! ahahahahahaha! BArri cm mosquito ! ahahaha! Cheh just praise mine . ahahaahaha! XB

2010-10-21T15:00:00.003+08:00

I just realise that this month was usually the month i would be searching a gift for someone. aha.. hmm.. Every memories that been flashback, I could only put my hand on my forehead and afford to smile and laugh. :')

PS: Happy Birthday! ;)

2010-10-21T14:55:00.003+08:00

Im So going to promote the new drinks so that we will win the $1000+ and go to overseas! :D

2010-10-20T14:12:00.001+08:00

Slowly im adapting to semster 2 and yeah, its going quite well. :D
I cant wait for holidays as im looking forward to work as a tutor again! :D

PS: thx twinney for the gift! :D

2010-10-11T04:59:00.003+08:00

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Ellen Page <3

2010-10-11T04:19:00.006+08:00

Sch going to starts tommorw.. Am i excited? idk.. theres advantages and disadvantages. Advantages is im going to make new friends, banana chocolate waffles and nasi lemak $2 is just 2 lvl away! yipaa! ahaha!
Disadvantages is im going to miss Wi4A and of course sum1 dat i knoe the very ferz day at RP and always by my side everywhere i go would not be by my side anymore. haiz.. Nvm im strong..

Thank u wonderful people in semester 1... :(
Hello semester 2! :D

Thanks for temaning me go KK, food heaven, library even toilet all tis while.. Gonna miss u and iRP ayte? dun partial ! :') chiow!

TC peeps!

Love Mum!

2010-10-11T03:24:00.003+08:00

I Love My MUM!!

I was down today maybe its becuase today was the first time i didnt reply ur msg but i knoe u wouldnt care if i were to msg u at all or not. Waited and waited but ur name didnt appear at my phone so i guess ur slowly going to ur own way. Ayte den. Must not put hopes anymore on u.

K back, today i was so down. Was alone from morning (Aku jogging srg! meet twinney) till 10+ at night to have dinner wif mum and after dat have a talk den alone again. But the different between being alone in the morning and right now is im getting stronger after my mum talk to me. She started talking to me bout her past love story. I was like ok. Soooo not the time. But her story makes me feel that when sum1 u love had gone, doesnt mean ur life is gone too. U r still alive? smth like dat.

Den tetibe she said whether im attached i was like no! Im telling the truth ryte? aha.. Den she asked hows me and S and i was like OMG! u r sooo outdated! ahaha... S att and i told my mum it was my fault cause i hurt S. Then she was like ouhkk (dlm hati mesti kate bodo nye bdk sakitkn hati pompan jek)..aahaha.. jk2.. I didnt told her bout A and of course W. She wouldnt stop den if i told her. I would love to tell her wat to do now but i guess her advice sumhow helped me without needing her to knoe. :D

My mum somehow managed to nail down in my brain that i must always respect someone especially girls? oso must be gentleman. i dunnoe uh how she do it but till now i had always respect ppl and especially girls till i cant even scold my sax section back den as i was the section leader and my section was all girls. I was so kind dat everytime i carry the chairs for dem and i let dem carry light stuff. the bari sax omg berat nk mampus! i just being a gentleman.ahaha! Although sometimes im a bit selfish when the person i loved walk off, but after a few tries i will give up as ferzly, i respect her decision and secondly i dun like to have competitors.

Example if A and B love C... Just because after a fight A wins B doesnt mean C going with A ryte? geddit? Wat im trying to say here is by the end of the day it will always be the girl decision to choose which guy wat.. -.- sooo if i lose i will just walk off. Just like W used to say, although some of my members back den doesnt support me wif her, by the end of the day she told me she the one who decide. ;)

K so today i learnt something new which came along besides respecting ur partner. So the answer is *drum roll* right after the break.. ahaha! k i suddenly rmbred sum1 accept me after i sound her by writing right after the break den follow i accept u. ahaha! ok2! soo things dat came besides respect was loyalty. Today my mum told me that LOYALTY was really impt. She was like summarizing my whole karma thing as i realise that my karma starts because i didnt LOYAL!!!.

So i finally und and hope by today tis karma is gone since everyone like going seperate ways soo pls stop uh karma.. aku pnat sey. serious shit.

So i guess W had walked away in my life. As i was reading the whole Beautiful Mess, I hightlighted that u said love will cure the hurt in ur heart? Does dat the reason why u r wif hym right now cause u r hurt? But do u really love hym ? hmm... i wonder.. i said it once and i will said it again, last long ayte?? hmm..

I question myself did i really hurt her and after reading the Beautiful Mess i realise dat she didnt start hurting after the break-up but instead way before we were att. Although i wif her, she knew some pieces of my heart was still with sum1 else. She sabar jek. Keep on trying to prove her love for me. Give me support to move on. Love me more each day.I was soo cruel back den omg. :(

u deserve hym i guess so dat u wouldnt be hurt anymore...

im sorry. i really am.. So i guess thats the end of our love stories?

PS: After this karma, i will came back much stronger than before. I wont play with sum1 heart again. I will change and prove myself to others, i did not enjoy breaking girls heart. Instead i cherish it.

AkeL

2010-10-10T17:26:00.004+08:00

Another Love story has ended. I just move on from someone and now i need to move on from you. Nvm, my actions in the past causes all this suffering right now. Now i really feel bad for myself for keep hurting someone in the past. I will take this as an experience then.

Although every unseccessful love stories in the past i blame myself, BUT must i take all the responsible for our rs to fall apart? Haiz.. recently W had attached. First of all I would like to congrats you but why must you come to me and say that u still love me and still miss me? For wat? U r attached girl..

K look, u said i ignored u after we break but think back again, did i ever ignore u when u call, sms, meet me? I was busy working and i knoe i cant spent time 24/7 with you only. I need space back then. I was hurt also back then when u said urself u wanted to change so dat we could last long as u were surrounded with boys but u didnt change ur attitude instead u change ur status.

Stop saying u love me when u r fucking in relationship. pls.. Go with ur Mr Vampire who u only knew around less than a month? IDGAFC ayte? Love can be wait but have u waited for me.? U remembered when someone told me that when everytime u find sum1 better, u would forget ur "current" love ones? I tried my best not to believe him but it was true enough though. It also make me doubt whether all this while when u said u love me, do u really fucking mean it? I dont think so.

Haiz.. Its my karma now i knoe. I glad that this karma came cause i would not knoe how bad was i back then. BUT hey W, look, although i now have doubt whether u mean it when u say i love you back then, im sincere in helping and guiding u all this while. I had enjoyed it much. Now is just memories like video playing in my head. Thanks for entering my life as I never regret anyone dat has entered my life regardless boy or girl, goods or bads, all i appreciate it. So do last long with hym ayte? Forget me. Give him chance. :)

PS: As each day past, i will slowly take a step away from u...

2010-10-10T17:02:00.007+08:00

Treat Asyura for his birthday last week if im not wrong.. We was like doing stupid stuffs all along. The pictures will tell and theres many more. ahaha... Miss going out wif him like we used to and laugh all the way non-stop. aha.. But things change.?? Idk..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ASYURA AKA VaN AldeN!

2010-09-08T01:00:00.005+08:00

Present In The Drain - Valkyer

Through the hustling sounds of the night's breeze
A recollection of those times
Memories that we have made
And all the tears that have been shed

Walking through the dark all by myself
Tears accompany me through the night
It use to be by my side
Now it seems to drift apart

I can't control myself

It tearing me apart

the worst mistake i made

It made my heart want to say

Ive got to get it back, from it
I didn't mean but it slipped away
I'm sorry for what i've done to you
I apologise from the bottom of my heart

Oh baby, i know its hard to understand
But life have been too hard for us
After all the things that we've been through
At times we feel like giving up

I guess its time to end this
But i need you here with me
Where was i when u cried your lungs out
The moments that you needed me

Ive got to get it back, from it
I didn't mean but it slipped away
I'm sorry for what i've done to you
I apologise from the bottom of my heart

2010-09-04T03:44:00.001+08:00

Real Love Strories Never Have Endings.

2010-09-04T03:27:00.003+08:00

So long never update my blog. Been busy lately.. This coming monday is UT3 and i just started revising it.. (Y)

So Just now work was super tiring.! alister supposed to work closing and i supposed to end at 10 but because he didnt knoe his working, i decided to stay and helped Huda's out. Its friday night ppl! Slam like one kind. If Huda was to be alone, shes dead. I pity her so i stay. Before dat i had scrub the back floor. Putih giler! rajin sey. ahaha.. After dat scrub the outside area. fuh! hari2 bole kurus sak. And ya customers was like alot.

One of it dat made me paisey was when sum1 asked for sky juice and it happend to be a plain water and i didnt knoe it. So i pull huda who happen to be by my side. Whats sky juice??? While shes busy finishing up the drink, she replied, plain water bodo! The girl and her group of friends(all girls) laugh.. I was like ouh ok.. Just quickly hand over the drink. aha..!

PS: Hope i could last long with Starbucks and eventually be manager soon! :D

2010-08-14T18:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i break-fast all by myself at starbuck.. As i was working I got no choice but to eat there. aha! I cook instant noodle follow up by tako ball which i purchase at B1 and oso the waffles from starbuck and Caramel Machiato! :D

2010-08-13T10:31:00.003+08:00

Sumhow everything is mess up now. I didnt expect it to be this way. Everything change. Everyone change. I am trying to change for the best but the more i tried, the more people leaving me. What should I do? Every steps i made would make someone angry and dissapointed. Haiz.. I tried to find a way to ensure that everyone was happy but with feelings involve it is hard.

When I was small till now, i keep telling myself that I will hold to the word called 'last long' but theres nothing in this world stay. When you find something that you really love and would not let to go, it or they would eventually have to go. Life have to move on right? Thats was my weakness point. I dont seem to move on from the person who had made an impact in my life.

Not everyone can understand me except few people understands why i react this way. Im a unique person who is in my own world. I got this kind of attitude that when the first impression of someone new in the clique is sumhow i feel like they are bad, I would just shut myself up. i tried to talk to dem but it feel so awkward. Sumhow i just can feel that they will find fault with me in the future. And it really happen. So it is really ahrd for me to mix around. hmm..

PS: Need Help, Need Attention, Need Advice.. =(

2010-08-01T22:10:00.003+08:00

This few days I simply cant sleep. Every decision i made is like a tiking bom that waiting to explode anytime. I accept karma and i knoe it will be a big one this time round. I never felt this scared before with karma. I can accept any result but does your heart mean what you said? If it does, than its ok then.

You know that ur happiness is always my priority. So seeing you smile will stop the pain that continues in my heart for awhile. So keep smiling with whatever decision you had made as everyone has their decsion to make.

PS: Coughing, fever, flu all at once. Moving on... Good Bye..

2010-07-26T13:09:00.002+08:00

Damn.. Soo much thing is running through my head and it sux.
My brain hurt thinking of it .
The more i try to avoid it the more it comes through my mind. oh god.
Tis sumhow affect my good sleep at night .
hmm..

When will it over. pls3..

PS: Big karma gonna hit me real soon but i aint afraid of it. Keep on persevere.

2010-07-22T18:29:00.002+08:00

I had messed up my life sumhow.. Haiz... Its really hard for me to prove smth to sumone.. I dont know that whatever im doing is right or wrong. I had always try my best to prove to u but it will come to no avail. It sux. Wif just around 2 more months to finalise it. I dont want o end up with the one i like but with the one i truly love? haiz..

PS: Miss playing the saxophone

2010-07-22T18:28:00.000+08:00

The previous post was from fyra. -__-

imma korean boy!

2010-07-13T14:19:00.003+08:00

My name is Afiq. I LOVE K-POP! K-Pop is ma life. I'm a big fan of Beast. I like GiKwang. I want to go gym everyday,like him. (: Enjoy this vid peeps. GiKwang,my idol. (:

BEAST is da bomb! *jump up-down*

Chak-Bahhh!

2010-07-05T21:29:00.004+08:00

This is whut you missed just now fiq! Haha! Squidward's EPIC face! HAHAHA! In this episode,spongebob was force to be normal and he became round instead of square,while squidward turns like this when he became normal. HAHAHAHA! Muka...fuhhh! Innocent habes!

So afira here. Hacking into his account since he hacked mine. =..= Fiq,kau gemok and will always be gemok. Haha! Fiq is still stuck in June. Haha. Pemalas nak update! And i don't und your recent post,'Offence'. English maut! HAHAHA! Please explain. I bet many of us are still figuring whut you are trying to say. Haha. K dah bye supermok!

Psst...don't hack into my account anymore! If not,i'll kill you!

offence!

2010-06-18T10:56:00.003+08:00

As an example to others, and not that I care for moderation myself, it has always been my rule never to smoke when asleep, and never to refrain from smoking when awake. :D

PS: 1 more year and im LEGAL to smoke! hahakz!

Cut hair!

2010-06-18T10:54:00.000+08:00

Finally i cut my hair! it looks much more neater! wee!! loving it! nyahahakz!

2010-06-18T10:21:00.004+08:00

Thank U FYRA for doing my blog!!!! i love it! thx! perfect bdae present.. :)

PS: Plain blogskin is my type. Once again,thanks to someone who design my old blogskin. :)

Memories....

2010-06-08T11:30:00.002+08:00

Went back teaching the kids playing their instruments make me miss my band, my section, my saxophone.. and of course, my assistant section leader. :)

I can still rmbr when my conductor says, enjoy this very last moment before SYF as there wouldnt be any chance left in the entire life that u will be given sitting be side the person next to u. ahaha..

Im soo going back band one day and start blowing my wifey. ;)

ValkyeR 2nd PiT!

2010-06-08T11:13:00.004+08:00

Went to East Coast Park with valkyer on fri for our 2nd pit outing. It was quite awesome. ahaha! I loved the last part where we slept in BK for an hour as it was raining and we were stuck. nyahahaha!

After that is the most hilarious part. When we are in bus, I sat beside nizam under the air-con while barri sit behind me. And dat barri let go one of the unpleasant gas. i cant go out as nizam was sitting beside me and i was panic-ing like hell. trying to breathe through the air-con but instead i knocked myself at it and i sat down back. And sooooo i vomit infront of my chair. Luckily there was no one. BUT den 1 old guy came and before asyura can pull him, he already sit on my vomit! We laughed non-stop..

Adding to it fit smelly pants, syura's leg smell and the rest got other smelly smell all conbined at the back of the bus causing people to sit at the back for awhile and they will stand up and changed their place to sit . nyahahaha!!

PS: The rest of picture is uploaded at fb.. :)

2010-05-31T21:52:00.003+08:00

I just hoping one day i will wake up and said to myself that i had changed into a better person. hmm... Sumhow i messed up my life. React things without thinking. As a result im hurt and also the people around me. I realised all my mistakes now ok but the next problem is how to settle it? haiz... ETC: Being a jerk, cant decide on myself, repeating my stupid mistakes and lastly, i dont know wat i want in life. :(

I cant really focus on other people for now. I should be selfish from now on and think bout myself and my own feelings. For now im slowly making things ryte. I guess. I cant change the past but i can change the future. 15 days i will be 17 ppl and my brain is like 7 yrs old seriously. I knoe it sux. hmm.. I got 15 days to make things right. On my bdae, everything shall be decided and all moves shall be made afterwards. After my bdae, I will not wait for it to happen instead i will make it happen and im so serious this time round.

Through my 15 days of lonliness, ciggs shall accompany me 24hrs.. thanks girl ciggs! i suck u but u give me pleasure. :D

PS: Hey grandfather, i really love u, u knoe dat ryte? im soo going to miss u. gd bye for now. i will keep on praying for u. :'(